Friday, February 24, 2006

HIS EYES

It is these eyes I miss. These eyes never missed a thing. They had a way of looking into people and seeing their soul. They could read almost anyone, and in doing so, they enabled the owner of them to effectively deal with people from all walks of life. These are the eyes I tenderly closed after his final breath was released.

I painted this watercolor portrait of him (although it was his complete face and his upper body) about 1-1/2 years ago. His eyes were the deciding factor in determining whether or not this painting would be kept or tossed. It was imperative to me that I captured them as I remembered them. The smile that lived in his eyes just had to be there.

It turned out to be a keeper.

The painting hangs on the wall just to the left of me here in this study. I look at him often. Sometimes it is just for a moment or two. Other times I stop and stare for long periods of time.

It is impossible to express how much of an impact this man had on me. He is and always will be my hero. Silly, isn't it? But, he knew me so very well. He could pick up on the most subtle of things regarding me. Things everyone else could not see. I often felt he would have been a fabulous psychologist.

Not only could he see people so well, he could see beauty and appreciate it. Late in his life, he took up watercolor painting. ::smile:: He would get after me to take lessons, because he felt I had the potential to succeed. I always told him, "No way. I am not good enough. I have never even taken an art class of any kind." He would shake his head and reiterate his belief in me.

Here is one of the paintings he created. (Poorly photographed by me, unfortunately. Ignore the glare on the left side.) He never much liked it when he gave it to me. It was not until I matted it in pink that he seemed to take a shine to it. He told me it made all the difference in the world when I changed the matting. It is my favorite painting of his, and it hangs in my living room.

Today, I am thinking about him a good deal. There are two public functions honoring him that are taking place in May, and I have read articles about them and had to do a bit of writing for both of them. I feel sure that is why he is taking such a prominent spot in my thoughts.

And I keep seeing that twinkle in his eyes.

"My father gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person, he believed in me." ~Jim Valvano

8 comments:

Christina K Brown said...

This is absolutely beautiful and your watercolor is wonderful!


I want to be your sister but can we keep my mom too?

xxoo

Christina K Brown said...

PS: what are the events and what did he do that he gets honored even after death?

Bedazzzled1 said...

LOL! Of course you can be my sister, and your mother is included...BUT my mother is, too. Mom and I are a package deal. ::grin::

Bon & Mal Mott said...

A beautiful tribute - how lucky you have been to have a father who believed in you. His spirit is very well-served.
Mal

TJ said...

You write with love and such reasonable words.You paint with spirit and it shows in your shapes.
What are you working on now?
I start my first oil this coming week.
TJ

Anonymous said...

Aww, this is wonderful. What kindly eyes. We can see where at least part of you comes from.

Are you going to share your writing for the functions honoring him?

Hugs,
V

Tammy Brierly said...

I can't stop looking into his eye's. You rock! I can see talent is in the genes. You and Christina are so very lucky to have such loving mommys. :)

Hugs

Jod{i} said...

SIGH.....
I feeeeeel this post..every single word and emotion felt within...

I wish I had the talent to capture him with art and my own hand...Although I able to do so with words(http://beyondthecrackedwindow.blogspot.com/2005/03/remembering-spanky.html)

A wonderful tribute Nikki!

Peace Jod[i]